i never said you had to read it

i have noticed something lately…i think that i have always thought it but as of late it has really come into focus. i can’t stand it when people are…i guess…well i don’t think fake is the right word. neither is phony. i don’t know how to put it. i guess i would have to say that i hate it when people live double lives. yeah…that makes sense. i just think it’s wrong. it’s usually hypocritical. in a lot of the cases i see it seems that people who do this are usually doing stuff they preach against. something else i’ve noticed is that it seems everyone does it to some degree or another. people are always quick to point out other people’s faults but never seem to acknowledge their own…even when it’s the same fault they’re pointing out in the other person – if that makes sense. for example… someone always tells other people not to drink when they themselves do in their own time. or someone says not to smoke when they themselves do it. is it trying to save other people from making your mistakes or just you being on a self-righteous-ego-trip? is it both? we’re always quick to criticize…never quick to compliment or acknowledge good things. and why is it that we make excuses for some people but condemn others for the same mistakes? if you saw someone on the street smoking you’d say “ugh that’s gross” but you find out a friend does it and you say “oh well at least your honest” or “well you’re still a good person.” i’m not saying they’re a bad person, but then again, that person on the street may not be either. let’s go with drinking. i know a lot of people, especially salvationists, who hate drinking. they won’t even consider it as acceptable for a christian to do. they say how bad it is for people to drink and but if they find out a friend drinks or catch a friend drinking that is no longer an issue. the first thing is always blaming someone else for the problem. it’s never the drinker’s fault it’s always the person who exposed it that gets in trouble or the people who they drank with. no one is ever accountable for their own actions anymore. i’ve been told many times “you shouldn’t have said this person did this even if it meant you would have had to lie.” what does that accomplish? really… why should i sacrifice myself…my morals…to cover for someone else who has willingly compromised theirs? i didn’t make that person drink and to be honest if they wouldn’t have drank then there would have been nothing to say. no one ever thinks that though. no…it’s always “you’re a bad friend cause you couldn’t keep your mouth shut” or “it wasn’t your business.” i’m sorry but as a christian i feel it is. if someone asks me about another person and i know the truth i won’t lie for that person. i won’t. why should i? if they’re big enough to make the mistake then they should be big enough to take the consequences of that mistake and deal with the repercussions. it’s always the bad things that we focus on. no matter how much good has happened in a situation or the good memories we have or anything of that nature it seems we as people tend to linger and stress over the bad aspects. we so quickly let go of the happy things…the things we would at one time miss but then stay consumed by the bad things that weren’t as important in retrospect. how did we lose our focus? when?

i can’t stand to watch the news anymore for that reason. we’ve lost focus of the good things. i hate sadness and that is all you ever see. i don’t even like to watch sportscenter because there is always some athlete wanting more money and wanting to negotiate a contract or it is t.o. complaining and talking crap about everyone he has ever met or it is that another “superstar” has tested positive for drugs or that someone is injured. well not always. sometimes we glorify and immortalize athletes because of minor accomplishments that will never affect the large majority of the world. it’s stupid. the news is garbage. when was the last time you turned on the news and the first story was something good. a story about someone helping out or giving back. it never happens. it’s a murder, a theft, a natural disaster, political scandals – it’s depressing is what it is. call my ignorant or scared but i’d rather not be up to date with today’s current events, thank you. i have enough of my own stuff to deal with. there are more important things than whether or not an athlete is not getting as much money as he wants or the fact that another actor/actress marriage has broken up or that another rapper has been shot. i’m sorry, but i just don’t care anymore.

i’m sorry this seemed depressing if that’s how it came across to you, but i didn’t make you read it.




there’s a big green ball in my room that never made it to it’s home….

believe. live.

- david